iKaitlynn

......And so, the majestic Kaitlynn was pushed from her ward to the operating theater at around 12pm the other day. Covered with blanket as the back of her purple surgery gown was very revealing. Sexy back and an ugly butt crack view if she would need to walk herself all the way from 6th floor to the 2nd floor.

Near the entrance, her mother and brother were asked to not maneuver beyond the red line. Kaitlynn was like "where is the red line?". So, she sat up and looked around the floor. She saw the red line. After her mother and brother were escorted out the room, she was pushed to a side which resembles a parking lot, but it was for hospital beds. From there she lied down, cold, lonely a little excited, as well as scared, she saw the red line near the doors. It was a box, apparently. Then she realised that she didn't have to sit to see the red line.

A few minutes before being pushed into the OT, she was given a cap to tuck in all her hair. Not long after, she saw a huge man, with orange framed glasses walking to the counter then steadily approaching her. Oh, it was her doctor. "How are you feeling?" the doctor asked. She said she was fine, but she lied.

Pushed into the OT, and she say a breath taking view of the busy street in a part of Star Hill. She moved herself from her bed to the other platform. It had an orange ring which resembles night market sold chiffon cakes, that was the ring that her head was supposed to be placed on. So she scooted up and "whoa, the platform was cold" she thought. The next thing she knew, the orange blinds closed the windows, one by one, and the OT was like in the drama set that we see on the screen.

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I think I had laparotomy, cystecomy and one more that I have forgotten about. I think it was for removing the whole reproductive system. Hmm.....

That was a story that happened like one week and a half ago. I'm currently in week two of recovery. This was my first time being hospitalised. Apparently it isn't as fun as it seemed to be. The once majestic Prince Court Medical Centre that I once wanted to explore around wasn't so majestic anymore. Still breathtaking though.

My doctor also told me that he would put me on oral contraceptives. He says that would let my only ovary left (left ovary) rest.

在医院睡了好几晚
好像是。。。。。。4 晚
二，三，四，五，六
对，4 晚

不知道怎样讲
身在福中不知福？

上星期三我和妈咪去做身体检查
照ultrasound时，
一个白白的圆圈，
里面黑黑的，然后一条一条短短的白线
和医生谈时，建议我照CT
说可能是卵巢瘤

晚上回家
妈咪比我还紧张，
打开电脑
查哪家医院MRI最多slice——同善
然后再看prince court 有什么医生
最后还是去了prince court

看了医生，
马上安排下星期三开刀
于是我也很淡定地跟诸位教授说出我状况
延迟我交作业的期限
另外再做安排让我好能够完成语文考试

成功啦
什么都星期一
因为星期二中午就要入院了

呵~
我跟你说，
MRI很吵的捏~
一直咚咚咚，咚咚咚……
怪不得爸爸要吃安眠药
被推进去的那刻还蛮好玩的
仿佛在游乐场

接下来，
复诊咯
很无聊。。。唉
之前弟弟也是整天复诊
><
下个appointment是29号

吃方面的确要戒口
听一半不听一半 =P
其实还好啦，
这几天都是在家
还没有面对到诱惑

听说我不能走动太多，所以
我的台北之旅，延迟一年T^T
2016见

一个字——顶

十二月了
一年就这样。。。。。。 唉
什么贡献都没给

我一月六日
两点之前有2个essay要交
在那之前，9.30早上。。。。。考韩语
隔天同样时间，同样地点。。。考日语

天天被英语，华语，韩语，日语环绕
我忘了我的志愿是什么
我忘了我以后要做什么
若你现在问我
大学毕业后要干嘛
我。。。。还真的答不出

为了圣诞节
为了有时间温习日韩语考试
我决定
今天开始。。。。写essay

唉

无聊~ 无聊~
有时候我很想问为什么我的科系的Essay那么。。。
令人又爱又恨
对，是有发表空间
可是。。发表完了，
又会多出一些疑问
最后，怀疑回自己

我最近发现
我好像很多事情都3分钟热度
没有坚持下去

从芭蕾舞蹈到音乐
钢琴,电子琴,吉他,ukulele,笛子,harmonica
全部半桶水
会是会,就是没有一个pro

之前有裁缝
缝拉链铅笔盒,小玩偶
然后玩水钻
买手机壳来粘水钻上去
除了手机壳还有玩头饰

后来玩了一次的珠子
把他们串成一个电话雕饰

手艺是有啦
可是都不pro
令我困扰的是
我到底兴趣在哪里
以后要干什么

部落格又不是常常上来写。。。。。
呜呜。。。。。

我好像都只喜欢学新东西
坚持一样?
呃。。。。。
过一阵子就觉得无聊
没新鲜感,算了吧

我国，大马本来就著名美食天堂
7月去了怡保站
8月来到了槟城

我从甲洞先上到怡保
在男朋友家那里住宿一晚再出发去槟城

去年一直很想做的事

我回来了
其实也没有。。。。。嘻嘻

最近实在太大压力了
4月28号那个星期简直就是拿了我的命
9个assessments in a row
光是presentation 就是我所拿的科目聚在一起的疯狂时期
还有，韩语和日语的听试口试都在这里

上个星期，
3个assessments:
2个coursework essay 1个written exam
而且让人逼疯的媒体coursework due 期既然跟written exam 撞日

唉！
终于松一口气了
这个星期蛮轻松自在的
这个会延续到下星期五 （的前几天）
又来coursework due date和考试撞日
变态！

因为我犯贱
所以2号后我还要考日文
其实不必拿的
可是就是要证明给自己看
要不然。。。。我2号考完后可以开香槟庆祝了

今天
看完了两套戏
一手挽着3大包血拼回来的收获
另外一手抓着note 2
要离开广场了
怎么知道
转身看见好熟悉的背影
宜欣!
对，就是她

我叫了她的名
哦
果真是她
没想到
多年没联络
曾经一时是很好的闺蜜一个

第一句就说她没有预料我的出现
我也是，说真的
而且当时要回家了
没有谈到几句我就要走了

走着走着
她问我，是不是看开了
是的
早就看开了
都不是她的错
只是我想得太多
想象力丰富也未必是件好事

想当年，
我是多么的天真
幼稚更不需要说
唉~算了，都过了

现在
赚回一份友谊
有什么不好的
新年快乐啦~
哈哈

Recently there has been much craze for macarons. Mum actually bought me a new convection oven to bake them. Although I already have an oven in the first place, I'll explain later why new. So far, I've only been using Ochikeron's Panda Macarons recipe for all of my macarons. Each batch is made with a little alternation done to the recipe for the colouring and flavouring. Ever since I started using the new oven for my macarons, they had all came out awesome, not to mention - with feet. Skirts were developed very recently on my chocolate macarons. I have no idea if it was due to the humid that was trapped by the cocoa powder or I mixed it to the perfect consistency or because I added the sugar twice instead of three times for the meringue. No idea. 

And so, this time, I added liquid food colouring to my meringue for the macarons. Many suggested that liquid food colouring isn't an option because of how macarons hated the moisture. It turned out well, I guess it was a taboo then. I think I added a little too much food colouring that the colour turned out too pretty. Vanilla, Strawberry and Chocolate flavoured ganache. I made them with my own experimental recipe. Came out nice, so.... hell yeah!

Arranging

Macarons packaged for CNY

Macarons in a glass

Macarons in a bowl

Mum loved the macarons I made. She even said that mine was actually better than the famous Ladurée. Whoa. Big compliment I just received. Still stunt until today. What more can I ask anyways.

Of course, macarons to perfection doesn't always come from the first try. It was after I started using the new oven that it all came our pretty. The beginning of my macaron diaries looked like this.

First attempt with Nutella

They were all UNDERCOOKED. Even after baking for 30 minutes. This happened, and that's all. No, there was one which started to develop feet. But I wasn't patient enough. Thus, the end. To prove that they were undercooked, I ate one of the macarons after 3 days (which was supposed to be still edible). Gosh, it gave me a tingle on my tongue. A little fizzy. 

Miracle false feet

With the undercooked macarons filled with nutella, my brother suggested that I bring some back to Malacca for my paternal side of the family. It was Chirstmas. That side of my family weren't fond of sweets. So, my macarons didn't receive a very good review from them. Whereas my brother and mum liked the undercooked ones because they were chewy, literally. After my macarons came to perfection, my brother didn't seem to enjoy it that much. Not going back to undercooked ones.

My journey left the jar of Nutella untouched. I bought a second 'Tupperware' of cream cheese SPREAD. In the beginning, when I didn't realise that it was spread, I bought it. When I saw the word spread, I freaked out. Couldn't find any ganache recipes that used cream cheese spread. No choice but to experiment. It turned out well though. Oh well. I guess there aren't much difference taste-wise.

Macaron Recipe :

60g Almond flour

80g Icing sugar

55g Egg whites (two B grade eggs)
50g Granulated sugar

Cream Cheese Ganache Recipe :

15g Unsalted butter

10g Sugar

40g Cream cheese (mine was spread)

1. Cream the butter with sugar.

2. Add cream cheese and whisk until the sugar has dissolved.

Varieties:

1/2 teaspoon of cocoa powder

1 drop of vanilla extract
1/2 teaspoon of strawberry black tea by Lipton

The amount of ganache may not be much, but it is just nice for the amount of macarons made using Ochikeron's recipe. In her recipe, it's meant for 10 large macarons. I managed to make 18 ± 2 medium macarons. I still keep the batter slightly undermixed and the macarons slightly overcooked. Make note that the reverse of it is irreversible. 

I hit my tray of macarons more that 3 times each side to make them flatter, since it is slightly undermixed. Because of that, if they every stick to each other, I can always pipe them again. Overcooked macarons can be reversed after maturing the macarons with ganache overnight. The osmosis process takes over during the wait. Since my home, Malaysia, is hot and humid, I make my macarons in an air conditioned room. This is to keep my environment dry and cool. Trying to imitate France. *giggles*

Anyways, good luck! 

活在这个世界那么久
才发现
我好像。。。。都是活在别人的口中
满足的往往多数是别人
我呢？

我到底为我做了什么？

啊啊啊啊~~
作业期限已来临，也离去了
我在前一天已经把两份作业都交了
今天，出去走走
放松心情
因为，9号，即将要考心理科

打算明天和后天都呆在家
练习写作文
因为要cite,
所以写的时候不能乱篇
要有根据的
是第一次这么回答考题
所以有那么点紧张
人，凡是都是要有第一次
全力以赴，做好本分！
加油加油！！