I need power

How nice and not nice it would be to be able to tell when will my pain start and stop again. This endo thingy is so sudden. It strikes just like that, maybe not. I'm now looking out for pain triggers.

Yesterday my pain gradually increased until I felt paralyzed on mum's bed. (I was watching TV with her) I was thinking through what I have eaten to trigger such excruciating pain. Then I also realised that I was sitting for a long period of time, attempting to finish my assignment. I had always been in pain when I sit, unless I was sitting slantingly, like how I was on the hospital bed.

I generally don't do work on bed, so, I tried once, it doesn't work that way. I can't get hold of my reading pack. Difficult times. The thing about my bed and I now is that, we spend like 2/3 of the day together. Apparently, lying down helps for me and if I don't move, I don't feel pain. When I sit, even breathing is a painful activity, that is when I breathe harder than usual. Distraction is a good pain killer for me, but once I'm conscious about my pain, it strikes real hard.

Being immobile is okay, at least there's no pain. However, when it comes to needing to go to the toilet...............and I can't move, it sucks real time.