iKaitlynn

想起来，我好像很久没有来打理部落格了
不是因为忙，
而是有很多事发生了不方便公开
多数的怨言都写进日记里

考试时期又回来了
很忙，很烦，
昨天才尝试做去年的日语考卷
哇劳
顶不顺他的难度
虽然说拿到60以上就够了
可是
我们的大马中小学的教育局制度就是让我们觉得100分才是满分
但我私立大学就是把100分降成了70分
如今
70分＝100分
很不对捏

语言考试本来就是要提起我们的自信
才能让我们觉得学回来的是有用的
可是。。。可是。。。。死人英国大学制度就是要打败我自信
老师硬要提高难度
讨厌的啦
虽然说是看开了
说什么，会做一半就算很好了
可是，谁不想看到满分呀
努力了那么多，回报是60分 （虽然60分＝80分）
很不好受的捏，很不好看的啦

另外，我还有4000个字要呕
两天了，还在1000以下
几天后就要交了
死了。。。。。死了。。。。。

After many trials and errors in my cupcake baking history,
I have finally found my best method to baking this fluffy treats.

I tried cake recipes for my cupcake,
cupcake recipes,
in the end I resorted to my friend's introduction of 1-1-1 cupcake recipe

This recipe basically calls for 1 of everything
100g Self raising flour
100g Butter
100g Sugar (I cut mine into 55g)
1tsp Vanilla extract
1tbsp Milk
1 egg

and I modified and added
1/4 tsp Baking soda
1/2 tsp Vinegar
1 egg (which makes 2 eggs)
1tbsp Cocoa powder
1tsp Peppermint extract
1 pinch of salt

I also made sure that all of my ingredients were at room temperature.
The eggs change temperature faster when immersed in warm water.
I cut the butter into smaller cubes.

This was how I did mine
1. Beat egg whites with vinegar and sugar for 10 minutes
2. Beat yolk
3. In a separate bowl, cream the butter
4. Add the wet and dry ingredients together excluding the meringue
5. Whisk until all combined
6. Add half the meringue and hand whisk til combined
7. Add the rest of the meringue and hand whisk til combined
8. Scoop the mixture into the cupcake cups for baking
9. Bake at 170'c for 17-20 minutes (mine was done at 17 minutes)

The cakes came out really nice. Unlike my previous attempt, either the recipe was wrong or the timing. Because I recalled that I troubleshoot my recipe to make sure I do not overcook, as it shrunk and turned out dry. Plus, I was trying to make some minty cupcakes. Recalling that my mum wasn't a fan of vanilla extract, I added very little of it. As for the peppermint extract, I also didn't add enough of it, afraid that it might taste like toothpaste. So this time, I was more brave, I added more of those two, plus the chocolate extract that I accidentally bought.

今年新年第一次跟男朋友去霹雳州
呃。。。。。。。
还好而已
我想回家了
为什么?
不熟悉。。
怎样都不是自己人
虽然都很照顾我
可是。。
不知道啦
我只想哭。。。闹。。。
我要回家ㅠ.ㅠ

How nice and not nice it would be to be able to tell when will my pain start and stop again. This endo thingy is so sudden. It strikes just like that, maybe not. I'm now looking out for pain triggers.

Yesterday my pain gradually increased until I felt paralyzed on mum's bed. (I was watching TV with her) I was thinking through what I have eaten to trigger such excruciating pain. Then I also realised that I was sitting for a long period of time, attempting to finish my assignment. I had always been in pain when I sit, unless I was sitting slantingly, like how I was on the hospital bed.

I generally don't do work on bed, so, I tried once, it doesn't work that way. I can't get hold of my reading pack. Difficult times. The thing about my bed and I now is that, we spend like 2/3 of the day together. Apparently, lying down helps for me and if I don't move, I don't feel pain. When I sit, even breathing is a painful activity, that is when I breathe harder than usual. Distraction is a good pain killer for me, but once I'm conscious about my pain, it strikes real hard.

Being immobile is okay, at least there's no pain. However, when it comes to needing to go to the toilet...............and I can't move, it sucks real time.

So much pain going through at once for 5 ocnsecutive days. Apparently the contraceptives was a form of pain control. My menses arrived 4 days prior to my appointment with my doctor, and that was the day he decided to jab me with contraceptives. Sad... No one expected it to arrive exactly on the 29th day. I hardly have an ordinary 28 day cycle. It usually runs within a range of 28-33 days. Every cycle was different. I'm getting my next jab next month.